Posts tagged: life
This human tendency to obsess, trying to work things out in one’s mind, is common. When these thoughts turn more negative and brooding, that’s known as rumination.
While people may get into a ruminating frame of mind with the intention of working through the problem and finding a solution, research has shown that excessive rumination is associated with less proactive behavior, higher disengagement from problems, and an even more negative state of mind as a result. That means that rumination can contribute to a downward spiral of negativity.
I was looking up the synonym of introspection for a tweet and found rumination which led me to this article. I never thought of rumination as common, though thinking about it, many of my friends have done this, with the same issues coming up for long periods of time every so often. Relationships, family, friends, body image, THE FUTURE. good God, especially that last one.
I’m trying to think, did I ever admit to ruminating besides on twitter today? I think I have on multiple blog entries, and I think one other person admitted to doing the same, but I’m not sure. I need to look at my archives.
All I know is that I DEFINITELY brood a lot. Way too much. And I’d be lying if I said it’s not affecting my (mental) health badly. I primarily avoid conflicts and problems. I rarely take control of the situation, even when I know it’s in my power to do so.
I let things fall apart. I’ve thought this many times in different ways but I don’t think I ever wrote that before. I’m 21. My adult life, if you can call it that, has barely started: I’m too young to feel this badly about my future.. about everything and everyone. Feeling like a failure is almost a norm for me. And I only say almost because I’m afraid to admit it’s true.
Hi, I’m Eileen, and I’m obsessed with the past, present, and future tense of how fucked (up) I am.
I just hope I move to the third step instead of being stuck on the second.
…holy shit I am Darla. This really needs to stop. And I need to make happier characters.
Starting with myself :)
i knew all of this… except for that last part… i never thought of it like that… this is pretty sad actually… but i’m still young at 21 and I need to remember this. i really want to try to live my life as if i could die the next… which is exceedingly possible… i really need to come up with some sort of daily plan for this. i always feel like i have years to go but i’ll never know if that’s true unless i’m alive decades from now.
i really need to make a bucket list. or even better. a daily routine that makes me feel like i’m truly living life. i just hope i can keep up with it.
but if for one day.. i can. i think all of the typing would be worth it.